Annnnd...More Open Letters

Dear Bloggers and IRL Friends,

I wish that I had more energy to give towards reading and commenting and to giving to you. The empath in me...the intensity with which I feel things...it leads me to protect myself when what little emotional energy I do have is poured out into my children, my family and to those closest to me. I do not like repeating this message, but I say these things because I want to convey that I care, even when I may not be communicating. And that I don't mean to appear negligent. I hope that you all can be patient with me. Thanks.

Amira



Dear MG,

My dear, sweet MG. Girl, you are wearing me OUT. Seriously. I don't know what is up with all the behavior and attitude these past few days (and some of the past few weeks), but...damn. It's like you're 13 years old. And you're only 7!

I love you. I think, maybe, we may be a little too much alike. And we're clashing. But that doesn't explain all of it. No way, miss.

*Sigh* I'm praying about what to do here. As your mom, I'm at a bit of a loss over how to address the "issues" at hand. We'll get through it, I know. But I wish this wasn't happening right now.

I love you, always.

Your mom



Dear LB,

Thanks for being sweet and funny and for playing well while Mommy and MG work through things.

Also, please, for the love of all that is good, just stay in your bed when it's time to go to sleep. Please.

Mommy



Dear Sister #2,

Praying, praying, praying for you. Focus not on the evil at hand, but on what the Almighty Good of God will do in this situation. Something good WILL come of this. Believe in it, sis.

Love you,

A



Dear Tumor Formerly in my Dad,

Be benign. Thank you.

An Oldest Daughter



Dear BF,

Thank you for being my biggest fan and for not giving up on me. Thank you for being someone that I can entrust my heart to. You are exquisite. Don't EVER let me fail you for some stupid reason. You are amazing and I love you.

A



Dear God,

Where do I start? I am working to stay positive and to think positively and to visualize good things. As life seems to go, I got tripped up in the last few days. I'm not completely off the new path, but You have to help me here.

You want to help me? Help me. You want to show me that You're in charge? Then take over. (Wait, maybe these are stupid prayers...)

I guess what I'm saying is, Here I am--I'm waiting on You. Is that what I'm supposed to do? I don't know anything anymore--that's how it feels all too often.

Me